school was alright.. i slept through the whole socialstudies period again.. whats new? need to stop this slackening already.. had english mock exam just now after school. did my paper and went to holland to meet denise, wai and queenie.. wasted 6 bucks on cab fare just to go there and see them fag and come back home? what the hell?

anyway there is this major mock chemistry exam tomorrow. and i've yet to study for it.. was actually in the midst of studying.. but then received an sms and i got kinda affected.. i just stared at the message for like 1 whole minute trying hard not to accept what i've just read.. anyway.. thoughts of all the things connected to him just flashed through my mind.. and i mean every single event.. like the chasing.. talking.. crapping.. playing. and all. kinda hard to accept that im probably never going to see him again.. -sigh- was feeling a little moody so i took the penknife on the table and just cut a long line along my wrist.. finally i see something red. cos the past few times i tried, it didnt work. blarghs.

im actually quite upset and affected.. didnt expect that i will actually feel this way. haiyar. i miss you alot alott. too much to comprehand. enough said.. sigh. 225 days.... ah. enough.. sigh.